Why so fast?

Why so fast? Why so quickly?

Not enough time

To tell the story so briefly.

I thought it was a game

With me as a winner

But that wasn’t a fame,

Just the beginning.

And now getting so closely

To the end of my dream,

You can’t even force me

To tell what I feel.

Yes, it's 2 weeks left till the end, till my x-day in the calendar, till my flight I was waiting for so long...Sometimes for me it was like counting days, 200, 199,198,197...but where am I now?

I guess, I just realized that I gotta leave so soon.

  And I am not sure...I wanna see everybody so bad. Guys, y'all are the best in my life, I even had some dreams this year about our meeting. It doesn't leave my mind even for a moment; I can't imagine how many emotions I'll have when I see u; and of course, my parents, I am so proud to have parents, like mine. They did so much for me this year, even though they were so far...

  Well, but these thoughts are mixed with some different ones. At the same time I feel like I am losing something important in my life, like I didn't finish something, and I am not sure what exactly. Experience? Probably. I never denied learning something here, I tried my best to try some new things all the time...And maybe even people, I've met here. They are not my real friends, not like y'all, but I spent the whole year with them, some of them became close to me. It started not far long ago, probably in 2nd semester, when I changed not only my classes, but also the people who surrounded me. I decided that I had to be more confident and get along with everybody, so I did. Americans are actually cool, they are fun, you'll never be bored with them, and even a stupid conversation can change your mood. And friendship here is not about going out every weekend, or hanging out, but more about talking and learning more about each other. Hanging out just helped me to understand them better.

  Oh, and my teachers, oh my Gosh! They are perfect, they're really cool. My favorite, Mr. Ness, business teacher, he became my friend so fast; he taught me so many things that are not mostly about business. That's how teachers should be; and my dance teacher, Mrs. Fields, she is the funniest person ever. Jokes, that's what we lack in our classes in Ukraine. I wish I could bring them with me.

  Of course my host family, yes, actually I will miss them, they did much for me this year, that's not easy to take a student, the person who they don't even know, for the whole year to live with them in their house. Maybe we had some issues, misunderstandings, sometimes I was ready to kill them, but they tried their best to be nice with me, they never said anything bad to me, didn't abuse me. My host-Mom tried to go show me different places in North Carolina, and other states...She always cooked something I liked, and was ready to help. Well, I guess, I have to say thank you to them, it was probably a hard work. I’ll still keep in touch with them, who knows, maybe I'll have the chance to see them again. 

  I will miss American life so baaaaad! Everything became so normal, it seems like I've been here forever, like I actually was born here. The way of life, the habits, the way of talking became American. Some of us would say that they don't have their own culture, own traditions, but yes, they do. I learned them, that was the purpose of coming here. I'll miss these beautiful places I saw, their democratic beliefs, their jokes and even food (P.S. I am gonna go on a diet when I come back. lol).

  I think this year will always live in my heart, it was unforgettable experience, the adjustment to Ukrainian life won't probably be that fast and easy, but I'll try best.

So, right now I just want to say thank you to everybody who was with me this year in my mind, who supported me and gave the faith in myself. I'll probably forget to name everyone, but I just want y'all to know that in my heart I remember everyone. THANK YOU! THANK YOU SO MUCH! I appreciate that!