Why so
fast? Why so quickly?
Not enough
time
To tell the
story so briefly.
I thought
it was a game
With me as
a winner
But that
wasn’t a fame,
Just the beginning.
And now
getting so closely
To the end
of my dream,
You can’t
even force me
To tell
what I feel.
Yes, it's 2
weeks left till the end, till my x-day in the calendar, till my flight I was
waiting for so long...Sometimes for me it was like counting days, 200,
199,198,197...but where am I now?
I guess, I
just realized that I gotta leave so soon.
And I am not sure...I wanna see everybody so
bad. Guys, y'all are the best in my life, I even had some dreams this year
about our meeting. It doesn't leave my mind even for a moment; I can't imagine
how many emotions I'll have when I see u; and of course, my parents, I am so
proud to have parents, like mine. They did so much for me this year, even
though they were so far...
Well, but these thoughts are mixed with some
different ones. At the same time I feel like I am losing something important in
my life, like I didn't finish something, and I am not sure what exactly.
Experience? Probably. I never denied learning something here, I tried my best
to try some new things all the time...And maybe even people, I've met here.
They are not my real friends, not like y'all, but I spent the whole year with
them, some of them became close to me. It started not far long ago, probably in
2nd semester, when I changed not only my classes, but also the people who
surrounded me. I decided that I had to be more confident and get along with
everybody, so I did. Americans are actually cool, they are fun, you'll never be
bored with them, and even a stupid conversation can change your mood. And
friendship here is not about going out every weekend, or hanging out, but more
about talking and learning more about each other. Hanging out just helped me to
understand them better.
Oh, and my teachers, oh my Gosh! They are
perfect, they're really cool. My favorite, Mr. Ness, business teacher, he
became my friend so fast; he taught me so many things that are not mostly about
business. That's how teachers should be; and my dance teacher, Mrs. Fields, she
is the funniest person ever. Jokes, that's what we lack in our classes in Ukraine. I wish
I could bring them with me.
Of course my host family, yes, actually I
will miss them, they did much for me this year, that's not easy to take a
student, the person who they don't even know, for the whole year to live with
them in their house. Maybe we had some issues, misunderstandings, sometimes I
was ready to kill them, but they tried their best to be nice with me, they
never said anything bad to me, didn't abuse me. My host-Mom tried to go show me
different places in North Carolina,
and other states...She always cooked something I liked, and was ready to help.
Well, I guess, I have to say thank you to them, it was probably a hard work. I’ll
still keep in touch with them, who knows, maybe I'll have the chance to see
them again.
I will miss American life so baaaaad!
Everything became so normal, it seems like I've been here forever, like I
actually was born here. The way of life, the habits, the way of talking became
American. Some of us would say that they don't have their own culture, own
traditions, but yes, they do. I learned them, that was the purpose of coming here.
I'll miss these beautiful places I saw, their democratic beliefs, their jokes
and even food (P.S. I am gonna go on a diet when I come back. lol).
I think this year will always live in my
heart, it was unforgettable experience, the adjustment to Ukrainian life won't
probably be that fast and easy, but I'll try best.
So, right
now I just want to say thank you to everybody who was with me this year in my
mind, who supported me and gave the faith in myself. I'll probably forget to
name everyone, but I just want y'all to know that in my heart I remember
everyone. THANK YOU! THANK YOU SO MUCH! I appreciate that!
